Written by Alexis
Well, if you have not noticed, lately I have not been writing in. To be honest, it has been a stagnent place of just not getting things right. I mean forgotten school assignments, forgetting chores, not doing what is expected, dropping things, friendship drama, and just a loss of who I thought I was. . My mom and I have butted heads on these circumstances several times lately.
I mean she knew that I was capable of being responsible..... I knew that I was capable of being responsible. That was who I was for my whole life. I was so used to hearing, "Oh, Lexi is so responsible!" But lately I have been hearing, "Lex, come on! I have told you this before, you need to be more on top of your work! Geez!". For some reason everything just changed...
If you haven't guessed it already, I had hit the start of a teenage personality. Even though I am still a tween, I have started developing teenage habits. Like being glued to my phone, blocking everyone out, not hearing people, rotten attitude, not helping out, laziness. I think all tweens go through this before actually becoming a teen. I call it the teen bug. Well, to be honest, it sucks! I feel like I can't do anything right! I mean I am constantly getting into arguements with mom- and if you have ever been in an arguement with her, you know you can never win!- and after awhile I felt like a loser. Defeated.
Being the prideful person I am, after a week of this nonsense I just had enough. I was tired of being a loser. So I turned off my computer, phone, and the TV- I had felt better already!- At that moment I decided to get all of my homework done and clean the dishes (without being told)
and read before my mom got home. I wanted to prove to her that things were going to be different this week. It was the start of a new attitude.
I knew that it was important to have that balance between work, school, and fun, so my mom and I decided that weekends are when we can bring out the phone, computer, and TV as long as I am concious about my responsibilities.
Now even though I was only stuck in this loser hole for like... a week, I realized how much being this lazy bum downs my energy. Although, when I corrected my faults, it made me feel so much better. Like these huge weights of stress had been lifted.
I knew that I had not all of the sudden changed to this teenage slacker.
It really is as if this bug has infected you and eats you alive until you officially become this lazy, egotistic person who does not have a care in the world for anything else but your social life. Yes, the bug had bitten me, but I caught it early and stopped it in its tracks. I know it will come back, but not today!
Today I am on cloud nine finishing my homework and writing (one of the many things that makes me feel good).
The only way to kill the bug is to realize it is there and just remind yourself that you are NOT a lazy, egotistic person and counteract it with being mindful of your responsibilities.
and....don't be suprised if your parents want you to get the teen bug vaccination frequently for years to come!
